waking-sleeping writing (from ethan)

hi again everyone. in the spirit of sharing, here's my writing sleeping writing from last class:

loosen, loosen your grip, loosen your grip on yourself,
somewhere there is a sphincter opening.

no you don't, don't even think about it.
you come in here and think
you know everything but
you don't, you're just... 

he wants to lie so bad
he wants to construct complicated architectures of untruth, 
complicated falsities with no ground

we have to let Idina Menzel go, we have to let go of what we wanted from her
she doesn't have to do this anymore, she doesn't have to sing that song
no has to sing that song, screens have been abolished, there's nowhere you have to be 

the hum of an institution
even when nothing is happening, the institution hums along there, a background drone, the ongoingness of social reproduction 

the king's court is toasting to your success, you are the talk of the town, they gather around you cheers-ing in your honor, but you know that in private, they deride you, they laugh at your expense

he knelt next to him, knees dirty in the dirt



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  1. RoOctober 16, 2022 at 7:59 PM

    "Knees Dirty in the Dirt" seems like a tipping point instead of an ending? I'm curious about your thoughts on these moments of tipping with regards to ritual and practice. Do you have them and if so what do they feel like, signify to you?

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