hi all, sorry it took me some time to transcribe my ritual notes. . . i may make an audio recording if that's something people are interested in or helpful. xchip --------- movement/drawing exercise - wave formation have nearby: pencil and paper, water, 36 sq. ft of ground/floor - face a westward wall - find a comfortable standing position - feel gravity pool in your traps - the weight of your pelvic floor - sense the space behind you - sense the space in front of you - sense the space above your head_ up into space - turn your head from side to side - bend your knees a bit - listen to your breath - find the balls of your feet - press your toes into the floor - release your toes - let your tail bone fall - feel your spine extend - focus your sense of gravity in the balls of your feet - bend your knees a fews times - lets your arms hang - find your balance - draw your heels off the ground slightly - let your heels down - draw them up - let them down ...
my text from today... (it is quite naif)
ReplyDeletethe incapacity of being
mother
wife
filmaker
a student
naif
Profound
anything...
with a head down
hands writing
cold
in my spin
i am afraid
of terror
Bolsonaro
stop. point.
a black pen writes in front of me
and Bolsonaro doesn't leave my mind
this is not a dream.
a deep breath
and yet there he is
A laugh
Is it his?
His photo at the newspaper
his teeth
laughing
is he eating something?
us? this country?
and me? here in US
US is not us.
Is Bolsonaro the entire country?
my country?
A sound of a feet in the floor.
A head down. A black pen. Eye closed.
a vibration of an iphone
the light is stronger than it felt before
Dis I got used to it?
To what? To Bolsonaro?
I wake up today. Kids crying. "I don't wanna go to school"
Matias got hurt.
And I kept going
but he is there, like the monster in Aurora's wardrobe.